Easter

I don't like how the images get uploaded in a backwards order.  I forget to do it opposite so they aren't in chronological order. 

Easter.  We went to Candice's with some other cousins and their kids for a dinner and an egg hunt and let me tell you how much of a pansy Roux is.  They have this little mini white dog, not sure what the breed is, and Roux was scared to death of it.  Every time it would come even 5 feet from him he would scream and cling.  Dude, it's just a dog.  I think, when he was little the gal who watched him on Saturdays while living in AZ, her little dog, was a little too friendly and jump on him.  So now he is traumatized forever, well hopefully not forever, then he would really be a pansy.  After he got over his little tantrum he finally started to pick up the eggs, aka balls, and throw them.  I didn't get him a "basket" of goodies or one for him to put the eggs in because I think it's a little too commercialized, so he just got 5 eggs.  (And we threw everything but the chocolate away because that is all he would eat.)  Some would say I'm a mean mom but I don't think he needs all the sugar and it's not what Easter is about anyway.  

He did get an Easter outfit, thanks to Nonna since we're so poor right now.  That is tradition I will carry on for him since we always got an one, and I always got a hat.  I also remember getting gloves when I was really little, those were my favorite.  And he did get an Easter pop up bug book.  I don't think anyone can have too many books, especially since he reads them all the time.  While at the book store Roux found this stuffed horse (he is holding in the pic) and was playing with it then rubbed his snotty nose all over it so we had to buy it.  It was worth it though because he plays with it nonstop and makes the horse sound.  He also has a stuffed cow from when he was born and plays with them both saying, "nonna, poppa".  He has already associated animals with being at their house.
This is also from Nonna, a "little peoples" barn.  Thanks, he plays with it every day!  I don't buy him toys so he only gets new toys from Nonna or Heidi.
This is one of my favorite pix.  I like the more creative and not so "poser" ones.
Every morning we walk to the riparian and the cactus were in bloom a couple of weeks ago.  Some people like mountains, I like desserts and beaches.  I think this is a gorgeous picture.

I just want everyone to know, being a single mom with no support from the sperm donor is the absolute hardest thing I have ever done.  There are days when I think I have made the wrong choice in trying to raise Roux and I should have done the alternate.  I struggle everyday with what to do and how the best way to raise him is.  I don't think I have ever done anything this difficult in my life.  But, every time I am ready to throw in the towel he laughs, smiles, gives me a hug and it makes me want to try even harder to give him the best possible life I can.  This means a lot of sacrifice on my part and lots of tests from the Lord.  I refuse to work 5 days a week 10 hours a day to have someone else raise him and me just be there when he sleeps.  It's not fair to him or I to do this.  I do know that as long as I am doing my part, the rest will come and we will soon be able to give to others who are struggling and going through difficult times.

So, for all of those who are in a relationship and not being careful about it, I advise you to think again!!!  Don't be stupid!